I am usually grouchy.
I tend to take everything out on everyone else.
Especially now that I am pregnant.
I cry a lot too.

I experienced the most AMAZING thing ever!

I heard my baby's heartbeat!!!!!!!

At first the stupid nurse, who was kind of a bitch, didn't push very hard and wasn't far enough down so she couldn't find it. She said there was a 50/50 chance to find it. It was normal if they didn't. Even though it was normal it still made me sad. :( Then my Dr came in and she tried it. She pushed a little harder and was a little further down and found it right away!!!! I was so so so happy. David said he almost started crying! When the Dr first found it, i started laughing cuz the sound microphone thing (i don't know what they call it) tickled so i laughed a little bit. Then I made myself stop and she found it again. It was at 170 bpm! She said that's normal for the beginning of a pregnancy. Then it will slow down a bit.
AWWW........I'm so happy! After that I got my stupid pelvic exam/papsmere. Gay! But she said my uterus was growing at a good rate so that's good news!

Tonight I went to the gay ass yearbook distibution party. We had to pay 3 bucks to pick up something we already paid 70 dollars for! There was candy, pizza and soda which we told were free, but NONE of it was. I fucking hate that shit. Ugh. So me, david, and keaton got wendy's. Also david's senior pic was all fucked up. My school is so gay. They make sure all the "popular" (which they aren't they just decide to take that name even though everyone else hates them so yeah...) people's pics look good then the rest crappy. Oh and also this stupid bitch Chelsea, that was sorta my friend in the beginning of the year when we had psych class together, was a total bitch. She saw me so I smiled but she turned her head and didn't even smile back when she noticed David MY BOYFRIEND was going to her side of the stupid table. Stupid skank. She already has a boyfriend. I fucking hate her. She's a dumb ass too. She said to David "Is Robbie not going to get his?" when robbie was RIGHT BEHIND HIM! She's such a dumb bitch. I think Rem should dump her ass..........

i am 11 weeks today.
weighs as much as a peanut.
1 3/4 of an inch to 2.5 inches long.
double in length this week.
body and head will be equal by the end of the week.
can do somersaults, roll over, flex fingers, and hiccup.
fingers, toes, and intestines are fully developed.
i'm showing a bit.

mom got me a mother's day card it says:
 hi mommy!
even though i haven't been born yet i wanted to tell you that i can
hardly wait to see you and play with you. but in the meantime just
know that i already love you and know you'll make a great mom.
love,
?
P.S. Who's the guy who's always patting your stomach and saying
"helloooo in there"? what a gooffball!
happy mothers day
(a little bit early)
sooo cute.

friday-baby mama movie with david and keaton
saturday-lunch with mom, mom day shopping with david, hang with david.
sunday-estas park with mom, brother justin, justin's girlfriend tiffany, dinner at david's

fun fun fun.

I forgot to add that on Friday I saw Iron Man with David and Keaton.
That was kick ass.
It was better then I expected.
Like all action movies are. lol.
It was PACKED!
But we still got good seats and it was enjoyable.
No one talked well that i could hear.
Thank God.

We're gonna go get me a fishing poll tomorrow.
My dad, david  and i.
Me and David are gonna pick my dad up from work at 7.
Then grab fast food.
Then my fishing poll at Dicks for 15.
It's pink.
I also want the 10 dollar PINK tackle box.

Kicked Major Ass!
After prom sucked though.
We went to it for about a half hour and left.
We ate some food and walked around.
Nothing much to do.
Same stuff as last year.
BORING.
Stevie hardly even spoke to me.
Well sorry I don't get drunk and do drugs and smoke all the time.
She totally ruined all my plans too.
I wanted to do pictures with her and actually hang out at prom together.
She said she was gonna go to after prom and never actually went.
Whatever Bitch.
Looked like a shit whore anyways.
I don't give a shit who sees this anymore.
I'm so sick of drama.
I'm sick of having to tell people not to say they hate themselves and all this shit.
Ugh.
I'm so tired and moody right now.
I feel like screaming and crying all at the same time.
Wtf?
I am TEN weeks today.
Baby is one inch.
Weighs five grams.
As big as a garden Beetle.
It's genitals are formed so it's sex  is clear, but not to me yet.
I will not know the sex until July 17.
I have an appointment May 14 at 11:10 A.M.
They should be able to detect a heartbeat and once that happens the chances of miscarriage will drop.
Thank God.
I awoke this morning to David's cat Bosifina crawling on me.
She was purring.
I love when she does that.
She is usually a total bitch.
Bites, scratches, she's evil.
But I love when she purrs.
Anyways and she crawled on me and walked up to my breasts and was standing on them.
She kept moving her paws.
It hurt SOOO BAD.
The pain was like a burning.
Ugh.
I just want it to be over with.
Not like in a miscarriage!!!
I mean like with the baby already out.
I want to have an out of body experience all through the birth lol.
I hope it's a girl...but idk what to name it!
Brodie James will be for a boy.

Is tomorrow.
Hell yes.
I am soooooo excited.
I will wake up whenever.
Get ready.
Then I have a hair appointment at 3:30.
Mom will pick up Boutonniere while i get hair done.
Should be done by 4 or 4:30.
Go home throw on dress shoes and final touches.
Then pics at the boyfriends at 5.
Dinner at 6.
Prom at 8.
After Prom at 12.
Home to david's at 4.
WHOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SOOOOOOO EXCITED!!!
The anticipation is KILLING me!!!
Tonight David, Keaton, and I saw Iron Man.
It was really good.
I thought it was gonna be shitty but it was kick ASS!!!
Well better get my beauty rest if I'm gonna stay out all night!!!!!!!!!!!

Till prom!
I'm so ready!
O am 9 weeks and almost three days now. It's so exciting!
I feel sooo sick.
I checked out the alternative school for next year.
I might go there or just back to my school to graduate.
IDK what else to write about.
We're going to Rock Bottom for dinner on Sat.
Yay I'm so excited!
I got my nails done and nail polish for my toes.
AH!!!!
WOOO!!!
I'm getting my hair highlighted on thursday!
Fuck yeah!!!

Just got back from the Glow nightclub in foco.
It kicked ass!
We picked up my friend Josh and had SOOO much fun!!!
David actually danced with me like he liked me lol.
Tonight was the funnest night yet!!!
We might go again tomorrow.
I love my Joshy. He is my bestest friend ever!!!
I've never not had a good time with him! He's the best!
He's so funny and kick ass!!!!!!
And April danced with me too!!! I had tons of fun with her too!!!!
OMG IT WAS THE BEST NIGHT!!!!
I had ten times more fun tonight then last weekend!!!

I do because that's gross. Even though it's his private life and really shouldn't matter to the public. But because he was taking money, putting it into his private account and using it to have sex with prostitutes. The worst thing is that he has a wife. Now that is pathetic. He is a real PIG. Government officials are supposed to be setting a good example for the public and frankly I don't think cheating on your wife is a good example. And he's not just cheating with some regular women, he's cheating with multiple women who have sex with all kinds of men for money.

Is a kick ass movie.

Just got back from it.

It kept me on the edge of my seat.

Plus I got some ass hole kids kicked out because they wouldn't shut the fuck up and they kept kicking the seats.
FAGS!

But anyways. Vantage Point is definitely in my top ten greatest movies.

But definitely number UNO in my action movies list!

If you've seen it let me know what you thought, if you haven't GO CHECK IT OUT!!!!

<3Ash<3

I have Thursday and Friday off. Conferences. Ugh. Grades suck. Two and a half months left of my junior year. I'm getting way stressed out. I really need to get my grades up. Connections (modern america and english 11) and Math are the worst. I only have two classes a day which kicks ass.
 
Prom is coming up soon. Yeah! Prom last year kicked ass. David, Keaton, and me danced like crazy. It was a blast. After prom we played volleyball which was kick ass. Best night of my life.

Drive Inn opens tomorrow. Kick effin ass! Except I just looked up the movies. GAY!

Tonight me and david are going to see Vantage Point. It should be good. On Saturday we're goin to the Glow in Foco. It'll be kick ass. Last Friday there was a 14/15 year old chick that was drunk off her ass. It was stupid. People are gay. Cuz you can get kicked out for that shit. I think next time anyone is drunk there I'm gonna tell the manager.  Cuz they are the people that are gonna get that place shut down.

Hopefully I getta see my bestest budy Josh on Saturday! The last time I saw him was last year. We went to a movie and then Red Robin and then that night went to Casa Bonita in Denver with my mom and David. We met my brother and his girlfriend there. It was way fun.

Lately David has been a douche. He keeps ignoring me and just like treatin me like shit. I keep giving him more and more chances which I really need to stop doing because my heart is so broken. Yesterday he ignored me and then when he did talk to me he was so mean. I wrote him a LONG e-mail and he read like a sentence. He keeps telling me he's gonna change but I haven't seen any improvement. It hurts so bad. I'm trying hard to stay with him, but it's getting too tough. I'm seriously about to leave his ass and never go back. I really don't wanna loose him, but it hurts. You know?

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Thanks!
Ash